all you do is treat me bad,
break my heart and leave me sad.
tell me, what did i do wrong?
to make you stay away so long
Sunday, November 6, 2011
off nights
Thursday, August 4, 2011
mineral at midnight
i just upgraded rooms in my apartment. the new space is huge. i really can't emphasize how amazing it is to be able to practice my pirouettes in my bedroom.
life is pretty cool sometimes.
tonight is pretty mellow, i'm just listening to mineral, still getting all my belongings settled in. the most recent additions are two new plants, sheila and jojo. I'm sure they dig all the natural light in this room as much as i do. in other matters, i have an incredible trip coming up in less then a week. mexico and mushrooms, here i come.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Dear You
as much as i try to put it out of my mind and pretend that i'm fine, the loss of you is still really killing me. if only i could find some character flaws to hate you for.
god, i almost wish i hadn't met you at all. almost.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
remodels
Saturday, May 14, 2011
perdu
Sort of came to a realization today that i've lost my focus. I've taken a really strange detour in my life and found ways to convince myself that this was my aim and that i'm content with the way i'm living. i've become exceptional at lying to myself and it's really not what i want. i have a lot of potential that i'm just letting go to waste. i'm disgusted with how lazy and self indulgent i have become. something needs to change. fuck heartbreak, fuck bad times, fuck disadvantage. i can't blame this on anyone but myself.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
truth
i really should be packing my stuff right now. i have too much baggage, i need to throw it all out and start over.
i need to forget that it ever existed.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
hey coffee eyes
everything has been weird lately. my lack of motivation combined with my alcoholism is making for a very strange lifestyle. i've become almost entirely nocturnal, many nights drinking until around 5am. i am not doing anything even remotely productive. i feel like it's a phase though, i'm pretty convinced that my move at the end of this month will help to snap me out of it. as for the more immediate future, tonight should be interesting. it's diary night, which could end with me feeling 'pop punk' or feeling 'emo'. i'm really hoping for some sort of happy ending tonight, but i expect nothing.
thought i had my shit figured out, but i guess i'm just as fucking crazy as i used to be.